L. Miller - Gilded Wings

“I have dreamed about this moment since we first met.”

His hands clamped firmly against my thighs, tilting my pelvis towards the soft sensation of his lips.

“Oh Connor” I sighed.

His tongue licking slowly, cautiously around my vulva. Rhythmic licks increasing in intensity until my body was writhed with desire for him.

“You’re so wet sweetheart, so wet for me,”

His fingers swept back and forth against my swollen slit. Tenderly prising my lips open to allow his tongue to lick deeper into the most intimate part of my being.

A groan caught in the back of his throat.

I was whimpering against the flicks of his tongue. My pelvis naturally tilting to move in rhythm with his mouth. Back and forth, harder and harder. Until the volcanic brew of intense pleasure boiled to no return. My body erupted under his touch. An earth shattering orgasm consumed me. My heart beating, my body panting.

I was at his mercy.

Connor’s mouth engulfed mine, the sweet taste of me was apparent on his lips. Our kisses were full of lust. Passion.

I pulled back, inhibitions lost to the passion we shared. I was in overload by the image of him before me. My fingers gripped the buckle of his belt, pulling to release the tension of it. I pulled at them making my intentions clear. He stood tall, as I knelt in front of him. Removing the jeans along with his black boxer shorts, his huge hard cock was released.

My hand wrapped around the width of him, firm. I wet my lips with my tongue ready to take all of him into the wet warmth of my mouth.

“No sweetheart, I need to be inside of you.”

He handed me a silver foil packet, i tore it apart in my teeth. Rolling the smooth silky latex from his tip to the sheath. He knelt back down so we were facing each other, our eyes intently gazing.

“You are so beautiful,” his hand stroking my face.

Our lips met and his arm wrapped around my waist. Swiftly spinning me until I was straddling him. Our eyes still locked.

I lowered myself onto the tip of his cock, slowly, inch by inch taking him further inside of me. Allowing my body to stretch and conform to his shape. The immense full pleasurable feeling was sensational. Being connected to him in such an intimate way. Enjoyable way.

I lifted my body up to the tip of his penis before sliding back down, grinding my hips. Panting.

He took my nipple into his mouth, sucking hard.

“Ah fuck, oh Connor I… I can’t. Oh God” I was stuttering. Pleasure was devouring my body.

He flipped me so my back was against the fur of the rug.

“It’s okay sweetheart, I’m gonna make love to you until you come for me.”

His body thrusted into mine, his hard cock pounding into my wet slit. Every inch of me was quivering. His rhythm and intensity increased. Pressure was threatening to overflow. I couldn’t contain it any longer.

“Don’t stop.” I panted hard.

With one final thrust my body surrendered. Orgasm shuddering through every inch of my body.

Connor grunted and released into me. Allowing his body to relax into mine. Our damp hot chests pressed together. Legs entwined. Bodies panting.

We laid there in blissful silence for what seemed like an eternity. My eyes grew heavy. The night air cast a chill over my naked body. The feeling of warm comforting cotton encasing my skin was all I remember as I slipped into a deep sleep for the night.

* * *

“Morning Sweetheart,” I awoke to the alluring scent of Connor’s skin. Still pressed tenderly against mine. His head dipped encasing my mouth by his.

“Morning yourself,” I smiled, “I could get used to waking up like this.”

“Well, we can do this every morning if you like.” His head nuzzled into my neck.

“Connor…” I paused.

“Don’t, don’t do it Evie.”

“Connor, I do, I want to be with you. I just, I need time. Things are awkward with Henry. I can’t just leave him. I need to talk to him, just a little time.”

“Okay sweetheart.” Glancing down at his watch “Ah, I have to run”, He paused “shit.”

He grabbed his clothes and rushed to get into them. The eagerness to bolt was not even slightly disguised. He was running. Fine.

He bent down kissing me briefly on my lips “Bye.”

And then he left.

Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me.

I stood feeling the wicked sensation of sickness. Forcing my body into involuntary gagging that was causing my stomach to writhe. Bloody alcohol. I ran down from my studio to the bathroom and allowed the contents of last night’s alcoholic consumption spill into the basin.

“Oooh you look as good as I feel,” Lucy let out a croak.

“You sound as good as I look,” I said with my head hanging over the sink.

I wrapped myself in my bathrobe huddling the soft towelling around the bottom of my lobes. The warmth was bittersweet.

“Is everyone still here?”

“Just us. Saw Connor leave about ten minutes ago,” She winked.

I rolled my eyes.

“Travie and Mitch left just after midnight, they grabbed a ride with Jake and Daisy.”

“Daisy? What happened to Callum… And where’s Lex then?”

An indecent grin spread across her face. “Probably in Callum’s bed right about now”.

Giggles erupted from us both.

“At last!”

As we walked downstairs the smell of stale pizza and wine turned my stomach. Dry gagging burned the back of my throat. I had nothing left to expel.

A bang at the door made us jump. What the hell.

I swung the door open wondering who the hell would be here this early.

“Hello Maam, I am Chloe and this is Beth. We are from Merry Maid cleaning services”.

“I’m sorry, I didn’t arrange any cleaners. I do apologise”.

“Courtesy of Mr Ryan. Here maam, this if for you”. She handed me a small white envelope. “Will just be getting our equipment from the van”.

I opened it and there was a small handwritten note enclosed

Sorry I couldn’t stay to tidy. Thank you for last night. Connor x

“What’s that?”

“Oh nothing, Connor just arranged cleaners as him and the guys ditched. I slipped the note into my bathrobe pocket. “Fancy a cuppa then?”

“As long as you’re making a bacon sarnie with it too, I need a hangover cure”.

I turned the gas on and place the smoked bacon into the pan. The smell was… was… oh God. I turned and managed to meet the kitchen sink just in time. More liquid spilled from me. Lucy let out a hysterical laugh. “Someone have a bit too much to drink, eh”.

“Leave me alone”. I pouted. “Your gonna have to make your own bacon sandwich. My stomach can’t handle anymore gagging.”

Tea slipped down the back of my throat, soothing the burning path that my body had caused. I could feel the warm trail running down my throat and hitting my empty stomach.

“So what happened to you last night? Connor and you seemed to have disappeared all night. TO-GET-THER”. Her murderous eyes staring at me with anticipation. “He really likes you,” she added.

“He asked me to consider him. He told me he really likes me and wants to protect me”. I paused and inhaled deeply. “I had sex with him.” I whispered and closed my eyes at my declaration of moral misconduct.

“And?”

Her question threw me. I was awaiting a stern bollocking. “What do you mean and?”

“And, have you considered him? Did you feel something when you got jiggy with him?”

“Yes… maybe………. I don’t know”. I sighed. “I am really confused. Last night, he was everything I wanted, he still is. He was everything and more. But this morning… He just left. I think he got what he wanted so has hung me out to dry… I just feel so, stupid, used. What am I going to do Lucy?” Sobs erupted. A sense of loss enveloped me. I had never felt so used. But what else did I deserve. I had bought this on myself.

Lucy’s arms swarmed around me. Holding onto me whilst each sob ebbed its way out. Each one a representation of my hurt, my loss, my stupidity.

“I can’t believe I was so stupid.”

“You can’t spend the rest of your life being unhappy Evie. You’re not your mum. You can be happy with the right man. You don’t have to settle for the safe option”. Safe? Henry the safe option. That was the last thought that came to mind when I think of Henry. Dangerous seems more in keeping with his personality.

“Lucy, he doesn’t want me. He left, he used me and left. I was just having jitters with Henry. I know you think he is controlling but I have a good life, and he loves me. I can’t ask for more.”

“Oh Evie, Connor really like you, there must be a reason he left?”

“Even so, It’s not right. I love Henry. Perhaps this is the wakeup call I needed.”

“Ok hun. I am sure you know what you are doing. No one will judge you if you change your mind”.

“He is all I know. I can’t delve into the unknown. Connor is a fighter. He will tour the world. He has a different woman every night and I have just added myself to his growing concern. How would that be for stability? He has congregations of women at his every move. I can’t compete with that. I don’t think I would be able to deal with it. It is an indulgent fantasy, and I don’t even think he wants me.” “It may be indulgent but why would you be having the fantasy if Henry were what you really wanted?”

“Don’t Lucy”. I spat out.

“Okay, I am sorry. I won’t mention it. Just remember I am here if you need me”.

Three more days until Henry is home.