“I’m not,” I cut her off. I don’t even want to think about it. I’ve been in Chicago for four days now and haven’t spoken to Jay since the first night. The only thing I’m missing back home right now is cutting people’s hair and interacting with my clients. Other than that, I don’t even want to think about my life back home. “I’m not worried about him. It’s something else,” I mutter. “Someone just makes me so angry and I don’t understand why I am letting it get to me so much.”

She gives me a knowing look and yanks my hair to the side. “Tell me all about it. Did you fuck someone? Was it Cale or that sexy hunk, Slade?” She drops down beside me and watches as I coat my lashes with mascara. “I want details before we get to the club. You’ve been spending a lot of time with Cale. Hell, you could melt butter off the both of them. If I was single I’d take both on at the same time.”

I roll my eyes at her and push her out of my space. “Neither one. I haven’t slept with anyone.” I look up at her and my eye starts twitching. My stupid nerves are getting to me and giving me away. “What?” I say as her eyes widen as if she’s just figured something out.

Shit.

“You may not have had sex, but you did something sexual.” She shoots to her feet and yells, “You, dirty little slut. You better start talking.”

I stand up and adjust my short red dress. The material is so thin, it makes me feel naked. It barely covers my breasts and hangs just a few inches below my ass. I can’t even wear a bra with this dress. Kayla picked the dress out this afternoon when we went shopping. It’s the first real time we’ve had to spend together since I’ve been here. Her job and family life keep her too busy. I envy her. I want that in my life.

“Maybe I did,” I mumble embarrassed. “That’s all you’re getting because I’m not having you embarrass me tonight.” I look around Cale’s room until I spot my black, leather strapped stilettos. I grab them, buckle my feet in and head for the door. “Ready?”

She takes a bite of her jerky stick and grabs for her purse. “More than ever. Alex is letting me cut lose tonight. Don’t be surprised if you see my hands all over that biker looking stripper. Hot damn, he is fine. I swear he looks more like he belongs in a motorcycle club than a strip club. Lucky for us, he’s in the strip club. Now, let’s go.”

I must not have paid much attention last time I was there because I don’t remember seeing him. The only one that got my attention was Slade. My mind was too clouded that night and I was working hard to keep to myself. Well, not tonight, dammit. I’m out to have a little fun.

* * *

When we arrive at the club, it is jam packed. We literally have to squeeze our way through the door and over to the bar. I’ve never seen such a group of crazy women before. I can’t even see the guys because they’re buried somewhere in the way back behind screaming women. I’m already starting to sweat just from rubbing against bodies.

As soon as we get close enough inside, I see Sarah is tending the bar along with two other women I have never seen. They all seem to be enjoying themselves, despite the crowd - they have waiting on them for drinks. I admire them. I’d be freaking out right about now.

Sarah notices me when we get closer and gives me a smirk as if she remembers me from that first night. I’m surprised that out of a crowd of people, she would remember me. I’m definitely not one to stand out in a crowd. “Hey, gorgeous ladies,” she says with a wink. “What can I get you girls tonight?”

“Something strong,” Kayla yells out over the music. She smiles and leans over the bar. “For the both of us. Especially her.”

I nudge her in the side, causing her to yelp and move away from me. “Ignore her.” I smile and grab for my purse, pulling out some cash. “Just give me a Vodka and cranberry. Easy on the Vodka.”

Sarah smiles and reaches for two glasses, setting them down in front of her. I hadn’t noticed before, but she’s actually quite beautiful. Long amber hair and big blue eyes that make you feel comfortable and at ease. I’m sort of glad she’s here. “So, you ladies are back for more of the boys of Walk of Shame, huh. Well, I don’t blame you.” She scoops the glasses full of ice and starts reaching for the bottles of liquor. “I’m guessing you’re here for Slade.” She looks up at me and runs her tongue over her teeth as if she knows without a doubt, that she’s right. “Nice choice, honey.”

The more she talks, the more curious I get about Slade. She talks about him and the others as if she’s had them all. I’m not sure how to feel about that. I’m not even sure I should feel anything about it. “So, what do you know about these boys?” She slides our drinks in front of us and waves at someone behind us.

“I know they like to fuck.” She throws her towel over her shoulder and leans across the bar so that she’s closer to us. “And I know they’re good at what they do. You won’t find any better. Trust me.” She winks at me and smiles.

Sipping my drink, I look beside me to see Kayla is hanging on every fucking word out of Sarah’s mouth. I’ve never seen her so curious. She’s practically sitting on top of the bar ready to jump on top of Sarah. “So, you’ve been with all of them?”

“Kayla!” I can’t believe she just asked that.

“What! I’m just curious.” She grins and leans in closer.        “So . . .”

Sarah just laughs as if the question doesn’t bother her at all. She looks proud, as if her answer makes her feel good about herself. “I’ve been with two of them. Best experience of my life. Both at the same time and it was hot.”

Okay, now I’m curious. What! Two at the same time?

“Details?” Kayla’s mouth asks what I’m too afraid to.

Sarah raises her eyebrows and jumps up to sit on the bar in front of us. She’s really enjoying this. To be honest, I’m a little nervous. “All right, you asked for it.” She grins at Kayla and then over at me as I watch her with curiosity.

“Well, it was Hemy and Slade. We were at a party at Cale’s house. I had been hitting on Slade all night but he was in one of his drinking binges so he wasn’t really up for it. I finally gave up and was having sex with Hemy in one of the rooms down the hall. Slade walked in, drunk and looking for pussy. I’ve learned that look well. Hemy was laying on the bed with me riding his cock and without stopping, just looked at him.

At first I thought he was going to kick Slade out, but then he asked him if he was going to just fucking stand there or join. I about died when Slade came stalking in and kneeled behind me on the bed, pulled his pants down, rolled a condom on and slipped inside my ass. I will never forget that feeling. Two cocks filling me at once. They never touched each other, but it was so hot. The only bad thing is, Slade has sort of a rule. He never sleeps with the same girl twice and my one chance wasn’t even alone with him. Doesn’t matter, he won’t budge on his stupid rules.”

Why does that bother me? I’m not sure I’m liking this, but I stay and listen anyway.

Sarah makes a face as if just remembering something else. “It wasn’t until later that I found out Hemy swings both ways. Talk about sexy. You haven’t seen anything worth seeing until you see two sexy as hell men kissing each other. I’m telling you, it’s hot. Hemy just likes to fuck. Doesn’t matter if it’s male or female; although, I don’t think he’s much for taking if you know what I mean. Being with Hemy and Slade at the same time was by far my best sexual experience, but being with Hemy and this other guy came in close second.”

By the time she’s done, I’m sitting here with my mouth open. Should I be turned on by this? I’m not so sure, but I definitely am; almost jealous.

“So, what about Cale?” Kayla looks over at me while taking a sip of her drink. “I bet that boy likes to fuck too.”

“Kayla, I don’t need to hear about Cale. That’s just weird. He’s like a damn brother to me.” I look up at Sarah, hoping she’s done with her story. I’m not so sure I can hear any more of this, especially right before I’m going to be seeing the boys practically naked.

Sarah shrugs her shoulders and grabs for a couple glasses when she notices some girls returning back to the bar with empty ones. “He’s a little tougher to take down if you know what I mean. All I know about Cale is that he doesn’t fuck women. He only pleasures them and lets them pleasure him. I don’t know why. All I know is that all of these women are hoping to be the lucky one that gets him to go all the way. I don’t know. I would definitely take him for a ride. I heard he works wonders with his tongue. I’ve never experienced it firsthand, but the women around here talk. When you’re a bartender, you get all of the latest scoop. It’s part of the reason why I love my job so much. That and those fine as fuck men. I can get off just by watching them. I can’t say that about many men.”

She pushes the drinks in front of the other women, then comes back to us. “All I know is that you don’t come to Walk of Shame unless you’re looking to fulfill your darkest, wildest fantasies. This place is dirty. The boys are dirty; addictive.” She slaps her hand down on the bar top and laughs. “Well, have fun, ladies. Gotta get back to work.”

I swallow hard and look away from Sarah while trying to process everything that just came out of her mouth. I guess when you’re hot as hell and surrounded by a sexual lifestyle, it doesn’t really matter who’s watching or joining in. Slade . . . seems to like sex more than the average male and pleasures like a pro . . . like an addict. Still, the sexiest man I have ever laid eyes on. He’s definitely trouble and I need to keep my mind off him.